So I wrote terrified the other night, freaked out because I decided basically to not follow God, to not follow His Spirit listen and refusing to wait.
Those who wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength... I have heard that before, and its so true.
When God wants to tell me something I feel Him. It has gotten to the point where my body actually shakes, not like I convulse, but its almost like a sharp chill. Its actually embarrasing and I try to hide it HA!
But the past week I didnt feel God getting excited within me, about the things I was reading, or the things I was thinking about.
The things I was reading, the opinions and discussions I was reading were not of my Jesus. And when His Spirit didnt get excited I should have gotten the hint. Run... away... now.
So Saturday morning I woke up after a very interupted inconsistant sleep. I should have gotten up and read my Bible because clearly God wanted to speak to me. He wanted to tell me that all these things I had been worrying about, all these "contradictions" or whatever, He wanted to show me. But I laid there and just tossed and turned like "my kids will be up in an hour, I need to try and sleep."
When I woke up, what I thought would me just me getting "to the bottom of things MUA HAHAHA" (evil laughter insterted), it was basically God sitting across from me on the couch smiling so gently, probably even chuckling... "This Candace, my Candace, who always brags about how its all about relationship is trying to religous-ify this word of mine... "
I started writing all these notes, wasnt feeling it, but was just kinda going with where I thought I should go. Then I got bored...
Then I started playing around on my Kobo (facebook, cut the rope and some random webpages anyone?) ... and I came across a book. And that book talked about Colossians... and I felt Gods Spirit shake. I spent an hour listening to something I had heard over and over and over again yet because I decided to tune God out, I didnt catch...
Those who wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength... I have heard that before, and its so true.
When God wants to tell me something I feel Him. It has gotten to the point where my body actually shakes, not like I convulse, but its almost like a sharp chill. Its actually embarrasing and I try to hide it HA!
But the past week I didnt feel God getting excited within me, about the things I was reading, or the things I was thinking about.
The things I was reading, the opinions and discussions I was reading were not of my Jesus. And when His Spirit didnt get excited I should have gotten the hint. Run... away... now.
So Saturday morning I woke up after a very interupted inconsistant sleep. I should have gotten up and read my Bible because clearly God wanted to speak to me. He wanted to tell me that all these things I had been worrying about, all these "contradictions" or whatever, He wanted to show me. But I laid there and just tossed and turned like "my kids will be up in an hour, I need to try and sleep."
When I woke up, what I thought would me just me getting "to the bottom of things MUA HAHAHA" (evil laughter insterted), it was basically God sitting across from me on the couch smiling so gently, probably even chuckling... "This Candace, my Candace, who always brags about how its all about relationship is trying to religous-ify this word of mine... "
I started writing all these notes, wasnt feeling it, but was just kinda going with where I thought I should go. Then I got bored...
Then I started playing around on my Kobo (facebook, cut the rope and some random webpages anyone?) ... and I came across a book. And that book talked about Colossians... and I felt Gods Spirit shake. I spent an hour listening to something I had heard over and over and over again yet because I decided to tune God out, I didnt catch...
15 The Son is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation. 16 For in him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things have been created through him and for him. 17 He is before all things, and in him all things hold together. 18 And he is the head of the body, the church; he is the beginning and the firstborn from among the dead, so that in everything he might have the supremacy. 19 For God was pleased to have all his fullness dwell in him, 20 and through him to reconcile to himself all things, whether things on earth or things in heaven, by making peace through his blood, shed on the cross. (NIV)
Every single thing through that big ol' book points to Jesus! MY JESUS! YOUR JESUS! OUR JESUS!
Instead of me trying to make sense of how God worked in the old testament first, I need to look to Christ to THEN understand why things happened the way they happened in the Old.
And its beautiful. I am so in awe of God. I had to run to a girlfriends Saturday afternoon just to get it all out! LOL.
It isnt about anything other than a God trying to get back His people, to show them His undying love and take care of them. To have that Eden. Oh that Eden I have been so craving its here, He is inside His children! And this is all stuff I KNOW but disregarded even if it was for a brief scary (oh my so terrifying) moment. God planted a garden in Eden. He took care of His children there... and what God showed me on Saturday was how when Jesus was ressurected and Mary Magdalene came to His tomb, she mistook Him for a gardener... the garden was back. Christ ressurected gave us that garden!! Oh my Jesus how I adore you and what a amazing humbling thing it is to re-realize that from the beginning it always pointed to Jesus. This beautiful Jesus. How He never lets us go, even when we stumble sometimes. He always has His hand out! Praise be to God! He is so good!
And its beautiful. I am so in awe of God. I had to run to a girlfriends Saturday afternoon just to get it all out! LOL.
It isnt about anything other than a God trying to get back His people, to show them His undying love and take care of them. To have that Eden. Oh that Eden I have been so craving its here, He is inside His children! And this is all stuff I KNOW but disregarded even if it was for a brief scary (oh my so terrifying) moment. God planted a garden in Eden. He took care of His children there... and what God showed me on Saturday was how when Jesus was ressurected and Mary Magdalene came to His tomb, she mistook Him for a gardener... the garden was back. Christ ressurected gave us that garden!! Oh my Jesus how I adore you and what a amazing humbling thing it is to re-realize that from the beginning it always pointed to Jesus. This beautiful Jesus. How He never lets us go, even when we stumble sometimes. He always has His hand out! Praise be to God! He is so good!
Yay! Praise!!
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