Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Im not moving from this spot....
Kim Walker of Jesus Culture was talking just before the music started about trying to keep that feeling of worship going constant, not just right before Church on Sunday but all the time. To keep that line of communication between us and Christ opened all the time. It is so possible. Sometimes put Christ on the back burner. I dont ever want to do that anymore, I catch myself doing it..a day or two without reading Scripture, without prayers, but I dont want too and its in these moments when we are so captured by God, that we realise just how important that feeling is. It can be permanent... we just gotta do what we need to do to obtain it. To pray, to be in constant awareness of Him. I think too that I do get angry and frustrated, but I can approach it different. I cry, I complain to God, but in the same time to give thanks for it, to worship Him in it knowing full out that He is doing good in my life through this. Thats what I crave. Not just in this moment, but in the moments hours from now when things are going to happen that are going to cause me to wanna loose this feeling and just be miserable.
I think I ramble the same things over and over in my blogs sometime, but God I think is really really trying to teach me to become fully 100% dependant on Him for everything in my life. Its my walk with Him, no one is going to have the exact same one. But I know Im going to look back and be like "whoa. ThankYou Lord!" Its coming up to a year ago where I felt the presense of God totally ripped from me, where I doubted Christ. Last fall was crazy in my life. Went from two months of total dryness in my faith, to the end of October when my faith exploded and its been the most phenominal life changing journey ever since. I have seen such change and I know I am going to step into these coming seasons with a totally different perspective as I did a year ago. I want to see so much glory brought to Him. I want to feel Him as close as possible as much as possible. If I have to fight for it I think I might. And pray without ceasing, and spend less time on things that arent as important as I think they are, and use that time for Him. First and always Him.