Tuesday, May 31, 2011

"Maybe His Love and His Mercy are Perfect..."

"so when we begin to argue with 'I wouldnt believe in a God who would..' who would what? do something you wouldnt do? or think in a way that is different than you wouldnt think? Have you ever considered the possibly the Creators sense of justice is actually more devloped than yours? Maybe His love & His mercy are perfect and you are the one that is flawed?" Francis Chan

This quote from Francis Chan in a video of his I found online just a few days ago has been circulating in my head since I first heard him say it.  I remember before I became a Christian these were the things I would try and say "Oh I couldnt ever believe in God because of..."... 

The more and more I study God, the more and more I realize I CAN trust Him and I dont HAVE to understand every little thing He does because His choices are always the best no matter if I think otherwise. 

Enjoy the sunshine my friends, she's a hot one out there today! 

Monday, May 30, 2011


My son has nursed for 28 months, and now since Saturday I have said no more.  This wasnt a mutual decision like I hoped it would be, but one that I decided on because for the past few months I really havent enjoyed breastfeeding.  It has brought me aggitation, stress and almost resentment towards my son. 
I have been paitient with it all, praying that God would give me the ability to keep going, but the past few weeks all I could think was "Im done. Im done. D-O-N-E ....done. " 
So now I sit here, completley engorged, sore, emotional, hot (its really hot here today).  My son battled me all night (which is weird because he hasnt nursed at night in weeks), I have slept not even an hour last night.  I woke up at 6am to have a hot shower, then came down and fed my four year old some breakfast, then went upstairs weeping to my husband that I just needed sleep.  He got up with our children and cleaned the house and even took them to the park while I rested till almost lunchtime.  I cannot express how greatful I am for that.  The thought of cleaning, moving, even walking right now brings pain to my chest LOL. 
My son had been eating terrific which is not very often he has been doing that, but I guess with no breastmilk he has no choice.  I did express some and put it in a sippy for him yesterday, in response he got angry, I dont think he liked that idea.  I tell him that they are "broken" so he looks at them and goes "awwww" in a sympathetic voice. 

So I have been praying, praying that I would just dry up, that the milk would go away!  I thank God that I was able to nurse this long, and that I have had a very generous supply even still. 
I have been praying for my hormones to not go so crazy.  They have been wonkey since I stopped, its considered normal... but with my history of depression it does frighten me.

"My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness" says the Lord in 2 Cor 12:9
Ahhh God, Your grace is my fuel, the fact You are here with me through all this. I find such comfort in that.  I am so greatful I am not alone even at 4am when all I want to do is scream!

the New Living Translation of Hebrews 4:16 says
"So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most."

I never thought I would come boldly to the throne of God with something like THIS, but I have such comfort knowing that I can and that He WILL help me in this. 

There is a guilt that is inside my heart that I have been praying to be released from.  The fact that I have stopped nursing him before he has wanted to makes me feel like I am hurting him somehow.  I know that nursing for 28 months (and four years all together because I never really had much time off in between my boys), is GOOD. AWESOME. GREAT!  But ofcourse there is that nagging evil inside me saying "you have failed your son, feel sorry for yourself, your poor poor boy". 

But Jesus tells me "Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you." John 14:27

He "comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God." 2 Corinthians 1:4  I have recieved amazing comfort from those who have gone through it and I know from this I will be able to help others. 

I need to press forward, we both do.  He understands he can survive without nursing, he has discovered that solid food is fantastic, and I know we will both live LOL.  All I can do through this is try to remain paitient, show nothing but love for the whole situation and remain in Christ as well. 

Friday, May 27, 2011

Are you a reformer?

Discovered this video this morning on a blog I follow.  It really hit me, this is it.  Tears filled my eyes and I found myself agreeing left and right to the statements being given.  Take a moment and chew on it, and also have a terrific weekend!

Thursday, May 26, 2011

My Testimony

I have had a person or two message me wanting to hear my testimony.  Its something I feel that is good to share, all Chrisitans should share. This is kinda long, but goes from my down point in life to my point in being born again. 

When I was a child, I attended Church a little bit, here and there, I was baptized as a baby, I went to youth groups a few times.  It was something I was aware of, but didnt fully "get" or commit too.  I remember having a cross in my room and we did own a Bible.  I remember the gory pictures in our childrens one LOL.

When I became a teenager, my faith was practically non existant until highschool.  Ofcourse being a teenager and deciding to follow what the world seen as okay, I began wanting to have more control over my life. My parents werent "treating me fair". Like life was "so awful." I had a temper, I hated not having control and just wanted to be respected or feared even. 

Well what better way to do that then to start rebelling and doing everything your parents said no to right?

I began to do drugs and started smoking, would sneak out with friends to parks to drink, did our own tattoos, played in a heavy metal band where I would scream my head off about how awful life was.  I dropped out of school.

I began messing in witchcraft, wicca, satanisim even a little bit, tarot cards, horoscopes, spells, vibes whatever (really nones different of the other, none of its of Christ and Christ opposes it all)

I began thinking I could have control of my life, I could make things go the way I wanted.  I began hanging out with the wrong crowd.  I began to not care.  Living this type of life can be a very inward focus instead of outward.  I was a very selfish person.  This type of life for me lead me into more wrong doors. When things werent working the way all the books said, I began to lie about things to make myself look more powerful.  I wanted to be feared.  Even when I was praciting wicca (which is considered "white" magic btw) I still walked around like I was queen of the world, no one could touch me.  I controlled my destiny...

my destiny was falling apart day by day it seemed.  I had to pick up the pieces inside myself.

When I was 17 I moved out of my Mothers house and moved out to live with my aunt and uncle.  Thinking I could do it all on my own, thinking things would be better.

The drinking didnt stop, the drugs didnt stop.  I had a stable job, but still partied way too much.  I was a very controlling person.  I hated things not going my way.  Anger could have been my middle name. That and "I just dont give a crap whats going on in your life..its all about me."

When I hit 18-19 I think thats where my life took a really deep spill.  I was doing drugs way too much, I was drinking every chance I got. I was messing around with this guy or that guy.  Loosing good friends, not a care in the world some days. 

New Years Eve 2003 I ended up in the hospital.  I thought I was hemmoraging.  I was miscarrying a baby I didnt even know I was pregnant for.  Boy the cards, candles and stones never told me that. ....

I lost a child.  God took this child home because I was in no way shape or form ready to bring a baby into this world. If this child would have stayed, my body wouldnt have been well enough to keep us both alive. My life was a mess. 

I began to slowly get out of the drinking and drugs.  I still went out and partied on the weekends, still did a lot of stupid stuff.  Still praciticed all this witchcraft alone in my room. 

I met a really nice man that summer.  We started dating, and this man didnt do drugs, or party like I did.  I wasnt even sure I wanted to date him because he was so "normal" LOL.   We will be married 5 years on this June 2nd I will tell you now. 

That year we moved in with eachother quickly after begining to date and that winter I got pregnant again, terrified I left him and went back home.  Gods plan was awesome through all this.

My Mom had become a Christian, and started asking me to come to Church with her.  I used to go just to humor her. But all this talk of a living God, about a God who loves us and wants to communicate with us... gee, really?  I remember reading the Purpose Driven Life book and attending some ladies things.  It was a slow process, I wasnt sure I wanted to surrender my life to Christ so He could let His Spirit pour into me and guide me and take me where I need to be.  I thought of exploring different faiths liek Buddhism, or soemthing very peaceful.  Someone once told me "those people, while speaking of love and peace... their tombs are filled with there dead bodies.  Christ is the living God. He rose for YOU. They didnt.  Think about it." 

 I thought about it!

When our daughter Alexis was born, thats when I got it I think.  Looking at her face I realized we are such fragile people.  God wants us to give Him it all so that He can show us His power and that we give Him all the glory, humbling ourselves, realizing that no matter what we did or do, when we ask His forgiveness He forgives us and we start walking new in Him.  He will show us what He wants from us and for us, how to love like He did when He was on this earth.  We are created beings, we are not gods, we are never capable of obtaining that power, but we have a God who is willing to use it for us, and contend for those who fully trust in Him. 

That was 6 years ago.  But thats the turning point.  I started reading my Bible, letting the Holy Spirit guide me through it, praying, learning how to have a personal relationship with Christ.  I love being friends, best friends with a Living God!  Answered prayers, blessings, trials, struggles that He brought me through and I always give Him the glory.  Even the things that happen and I say "there is no way God can be glorified through this." Oh yes He can.  He always is, and He always will be. 

So thats it.  I was Baptized again in 2009 and I have chose to follow Him and only Him forever and ever. 

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Spiritual Milk

Today we had a guest speaker at our Church, and wow its was a great message.  I was jotting down notes and I cant wait to dig into the word again and just suck it all up and enjoy what God has written in this amazing book we call the Bible. 

He was talking for a moment about craving God like spiritual milk.  I have heard this before, and as a breastfeeding mother... a breastfeeding mother for the past 4 years straight, I know all about milk.  LOL

1 Peter 2:2 talks about this :
Like newborn babies, you must crave pure spiritual milk so that you will grow into a full experience of salvation. Cry out for this nourishment

I thought about it really hard today, really let that thought sink in my head.  How easy it is to not crave what God says is right, but what the world says is right.  I know looking at the way the world has really gotten away from God, I dont want to be at her breast.  I need that pure spiritual milk that only comes from Jesus.  The words that will nourish my soul, the attitudes that will reflect how He is. 

When he was speaking I thought immediatly of our two year old son Zayden and how he is still very much in love with breastfeeding and if he had it his way he would be hanging off me all day long.  He will find any way possible to get his milk.  Just watch this video and see for yourself .. no worries, theres nothing exposed. Im fully clothed but just watch how crafty he has gotten to obtain what he loves.....

He really tries with such conviction sometimes.  Its his comfort, it is his nutrients.  I thought to myself, even when he is told that he cant have it, he will still fight for it.  I wonder if there are people seriously craving the word of God but because the world says its wrong to have the spiritual milk of God, or says there are other ways to be with God,  they wean themselves from the idea, and walk away feeling forever that something is lacking...that hunger.  We need to fight sometimes to be close to God while surrounded by things that try and pull us away, we need to fight for Him.  He did not give us a Spirit of fear.  He gave us His Spirit of such goodness.  Its awesome. 

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Green Tea Smoothie

 Woke up this morning deciding I didnt want to start the day off with a huge tripple tripple coffee.  Thats no way to loose weight.  I have green tea, but Im not the hugest fan.  Laying there this morning thinking of how I was going to tackle this... really not wanting a caffeine headache I started to wonder if I could just add it to my smoothie. *duh* .  So I searched the web and found numerous recipies for green tea smoothies!  Hurray!!
So this is what I did, I brewed some Green Tea and stuck it in the freezer in a mug.  I tended to the children, made breakfast and lunches for them, cleaned up the kitchen a bit, and it wasnt long before my morning pick up was done and my tea was cold 

This is basically how I did mine, but you could do so many different things with it I bet and it would all taste great!
1 cup of blueberries
1 cup of yogurt give or take (I used the blue label pomegranate blueberry fat free yogurt from No Frills)
4 tsps hemp seeds
and enough of the green tea to blend it all up to a nice smoothy consistancy!

It was yummy! Try it! 

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

The sound...

The sounds around us, have you considered?
The way the wind sounds as it moves through the branches of a old willow,
The way the rain sounds as it hits the grass in the dead of night,
the sound of breath...
the sound of laughter from a child
the sound of a grandmother singing
the sound of a pin dropping
the sound that the thunder makes
the sound that snow makes as it shifts
the sound of a fire simmering down after a bon fire
the sound of crickets chirping
the sound of water flowing
the sound of an eye blinking...

Before it could all be, You carefully decided on the sounds that would accompany life. Fine tuned it into a sympany. Thank You Heavenly Father,  You did it perfectly. 

Monday, May 16, 2011

how easy it is to be decieved.

Oh how easy it is to forget that we too as Christians need to make sure we are careful...

I have watched family and friends be decieved by the worlds views for a long time.  I pray for them daily in hopes that they would see truth instead of a comfy cozy all empowering view the world dishes out daily.

I forgot to pray for myself and was decieved greatly recently.  

It is so easy, even as a Christian to look at something that LOOKS like its from God, get very excited about it, say "this is perfect, solves all my thoughts on this or that!"  To do a dance of happiness, only to find out that "wait a minute, that doesnt align with Scripture!"

Now some people dont believe that the Bible is as wonderful as many Christians claim it is.  "its just stories, not all acurate, it has been tainted by man." 

I was pointed out something very important in Scripture.  I have had a dear friend helping me in a study right now that has really opened my eyes not only on the matter, but also on gaurding myself!

" All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness"
-2 Timothy 3:16 (NIV)

Key word of this for me is  "ALL!"  Not just bits and peices, therefore we really shouldnt be dismissing one thing or another that is in the Bible, but taking it all very seriously and from God himself! If we are denying parts of scriputre and just taking bits and peices, are we not denying ourselves from Christ?

Jesus, our Saviour, our King warns us about deception and I have been really trying to meditate on this because I feel I have had this head on latley. Deception version 2.0.

  Jesus told them, “Don’t let anyone mislead you,  for many will come in my name, claiming, ‘I am the Messiah.’ They will deceive many. And you will hear of wars and threats of wars, but don’t panic. Yes, these things must take place, but the end won’t follow immediately.  Nation will go to war against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in many parts of the world.  But all this is only the first of the birth pains, with more to come. - Matthew 24: 4-8

1 Timothy 4:1 says, "Now the Holy Spirit tells us clearly that in the last times some will turn away from the true faith; they will follow deceptive spirits and teachings that come from demons."

Demons... thats scary stuff! Thats stuff I really want to not be any part of!!!!  And let me state that Im not just thinking about stuff that is blatantly obvious, evil, dark, brooding, angry, murdering, insane crazy rubber room things.  There are things that are out there that look so perfect, so beautiful, so RIGHT, that are sooo not of Christ.  They wont be all wonderful forever and because they are not of God will wither away and die.  They are from demons as well!!!  Look at the Devil, he was the most beautiful, angelic angel of God!  His job is to decieve, distroy and kill (funny this was just talked about at our Church this past week, and its really true!), and he is perfect for the job and does a darn good job at it too!!! 

Corinthians 3:18 says “let no man deceive himself, if any may among you seems to be wise in this world, let him become a fool, that he may be wise”. 

As I have been chewing on all this I have really realized why it is so important to surround yourselves who know God's truth and not just to go searching for it yourself, because it is so easy to be decieved.  So easy,

like super duper easy. 

When we know God's word and we understand what He was saying, we start to be able to defend ourselves as God's people, and we get to be protected by God who is our shield (another thing I have just really been soaking in that I am just learning about! God is so good!). We need to be reading all of it, not just what makes us comfortable, what sounds pretty and nice and loving, we need to understand all of God, not just some of it. 

I am not ashamed that I have been tempted by other things, I am not ashamed that I have been decieved. A bit frustrated, yes I will admit and God and I are working on that. And He will answer all my questions in time, He always has and always will!  "Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever." - Hebrews 13:8
I am prasing God for all of this because through this I have got to study more, learn more, pray more and hear God more in my life!  Who doesnt want more of our amazing Jesus in their life?!?! 

This journey has already brought so much to my mind, there is so much I want to learn, suck in, chew on, sit in awe of.  And once I understand it all and I am in a place of "wow, that was amazing!"  I will be eager to find out what God has next! 

Friday, May 13, 2011

Friday the 13th

I recieved this today and had to share as it fits with the the fact that its Friday the 13th.

"beyond all false superstition is a God, Jesus Christ, who loves You and will protect You. Nothing is greater than Him. No number, stone, circle or candle could ever save you. Nothing in creation can save you because it all withers and dies like your body will, except the kicker is, your spirit is alive in Christ Jesus and lives for all eternity. No umbrella in the house, no friday the 13th, no black cat, ladder or broken mirror can stop Christs love from shining beyond belief in your life if you would only trust Him fully to do so. "

Thursday, May 12, 2011


Jesus, our saviour is faithful to us, when we are faithful to Him.  And oh how I never ever want to loose my faith in Him because I have seen it move mountains!!!!!

Mark 11:22-25  "Then Jesus said to the disciples, “Have faith in God.  I tell you the truth, you can say to this mountain, ‘May you be lifted up and thrown into the sea,’ and it will happen. But you must really believe it will happen and have no doubt in your heart.  I tell you, you can pray for anything, and if you believe that you’ve received it, it will be yours.  But when you are praying, first forgive anyone you are holding a grudge against, so that your Father in heaven will forgive your sins, too."

There has been something I have been praying for each day faithfully to Christ for around six years. I never once for a second though Jesus wouldnt answer this prayer, but I knew it was going to be in His timing and not mine.  These past few weeks Im starting to see this prayer of mine getting answered and yet again, God's timing is perfect.  Jesus' timing has always been perfect and always will be perfect because Christ our saviour is perfect.

But oh how easy it is in our human error to think that His timing and His need for us to be paitient in certain things is off isnt it? 

How easy it is to just give up on Christ and persue it ourselves only to stumble again and again.

But once you REALLY trust Christ to carry your burdens and prayers and handle them in the best way possible, the feeling of freedom, bliss and happiness just flourishes beyond belief. 

I have just sat here especially in the past few days again with my hands on my forehead, leaning back in my chair going...

"Jesus, you really do take care of us, hear our prayers and you are just so amazing.  I could not imagine these situations being more perfect and now seeing it the way You see it for me, I never ever want to put my trust in any person, clever thought, or opinion again.  I only want what You want because You want what is best for me, and all those who follow You.  I refuse to follow the World because it seems "better".  "Better" doesnt mean "best".  Jesus, my saviour, my God, You gives us Your best. "

Jesus prayed    “My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message,  that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me.  I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one—  I in them and you in me—so that they may be brought to complete unity. Then the world will know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me."  John 17:20-23

Monday, May 9, 2011

I am far from being God

This morning as I am performing my housewife duties (and I mean this in a wonderful way, I adore being a housewife, may not be the best, but God is helping me in this) I was listening to Jesus Culture and their song Where You Go I'll Go and just cleaning away.  My youngest started to hit the keyboard and it stopped the song.  I got a bit flustered and frustrated and I got angry.  Not over the top angry, but I think I could have handled it better.  I started to laugh seconds later because I was like "That wasnt something Jesus would have done I dont think."  And the song is stating that as a believer "Where You go I'll go, what You say I'll say God, and what You pray I'll pray." 

Jesus only did what God told Him to do.  They are two in the same.  And they have a continuous relationship that is open.  When Christ died for us and upon accepting this amazing feat, we too are given that open relationship with God through the Holy Spirit that is poured upon us.  We have a direct line to God for everything.  And with that, I think that we should be going to Christ for everything.  Trusting Him with everything.  As humans we are bound to be struggling each day with at least one thing, and in those moments, weather it be with home situations, work situations, relationships, money etc, we should be going to God with these questions because God is always going to do what is best for us.  And whatever He shows me to do or say, I should be saying it because I know its best for me. 

God is never going to give us His second best.

Even though I have the Holy Spirit, and therefore God within me, I could argue that I am always going to know what is right, but I am far from being God myself, if  I were God I would have no issues what so ever, Christ would not have had to come and die for me and I would be committing something I think is very dangerous and so far off scripture and bringing Jesus down to a level I dare never bring Him too.  Im still human and still have error so I think in all honesty I can not fully trust my judgement that everything I think is right is best for me... following me here??  I still always have to be continuously going to God.  And thankfully when I do make mistakes (which we all do daily!) then when I die and go before judgement before God, I will be covered with the blood of Christ and will be seen as perfect before Gods eyes.  Thank You Jesus.

  1 Peter 4:11 If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen.

I think about the fruit of the Spirit

Galatians 5:22-23 (Amplified Bible)

But the fruit of the [Holy] Spirit [the work which His presence within accomplishes] is love, joy (gladness), peace, patience (an even temper, forbearance), kindness, goodness (benevolence), faithfulness, Gentleness (meekness, humility), self-control (self-restraint, continence). Against such things there is no law [that can bring a charge].
This is what I pray for.  That I would continously be able to practice these things.  They are all amazing attributes to have I think that totally show Christs unfailing Love. 
Continuously in prayer and I dont mean spending all my time sitting on my couch with my eyes closed praying, we can pray to God anywhere, before we answer our phone, before we log onto Facebook, before we go to make dinner, everything!  Just a quick "hey Jesus I wanna talk to you about something.."  I love that we can do that!!!  And He loves to have this relationship with us! Makes me all happy inside :) 

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Happy Mothers Day

Today we celebrated Mothers Day in a laid back fashion as I was getting over a horrid 24 hour stomach bug that just didnt want me to get out of my home.  It started at 3pm yesterday afternoon and by the evening I was out of commission.  My stomach still feels achey from it, but praise God, I feel much better than 24 hours ago. 
My oldest woke me up to breakfast in bed, some toast and yogurt and a tall glass of water.  She tended to her younger brothers the best she could and they played upstairs till my husband got home from a quick shift at work. 
"Are we going to the worship center this morning?"  He asks me
"I really wish I could, but I dont want to bring this there."
"Wanna come downstairs and watch some tv with me?" 
"I'll try."

I read in my Bible for a while, did some study.  God is good!

 Later in the afternoon I started to gain enough strength to get outside with the kids. I stood there watching the neighbourhood so filled with life.  My youngest playing with bubbles, my daughter making paper crafts with her friends.  My four year old showing me the tricks he can do on his big wheel bike.  Watching them check out the ants on the sidewalk watching them work hard.  Finding a worm and being completly fascinated with it.  My youngest has taken an interest in birds latley, listening to the bird calls and then flapping his arms frantically imitating their flight.   Precious moments. Things they notice that are so simple, yet so astonishing. 

A wasp decided my bra would be a nice place to explore...I got stung twice.  That doesnt feel terrific.  Thank God for AfterBite.

Its really terrific to see all the kids interacting with eachother in our area.  Ofcourse there is the occasional argument but all in all the vibe from the children is good. 

It was hot today. So hot infact that was actually had an icecream truck come down our street. I was more excited at first I think than the kids.  It brought back memories of when I was growing up and the kid with the Dickie Dee would come by and sell ice cream to all of us.  I betcha he makes a fortune in the summer!!! 

The kids all picked what they wanted and we sat with our neighbours and talked and the children laughed at their blue faces, ice cream headaches and other random moments. 

Upstairs for baths, a quick dinner and then began the prayers of paitience as we are just finishing week one of trying to get our 27 month old to go to sleep without nursing.  It took an hour of coaxing.  He wasnt angry, but just not tired enough, wanted to play.  I got him hushed by listening to the robins outside. "Hey here that?  Listen.... she's saying night night Zayden time to go to sleep".  He would laugh and listen for the next sentence.  Blissfull. 

Dispite feeling sick and being attacked by a wasp (yes I said attacked, thats what it felt like LOL), the day was beautiful and I thank God for each moment. 

And I think back to all the moments I have shared with these three beautiful blessings from Christ and I think to myself "its been amazing."  They arent babies anymore.  They have been growing into amazing individuals since conception.  Amazing human beings. 

And I pause to think... they are only 6, 4 and 2... and its been such a journey so far and we havent been hiking long. 

We are going to go down wrong roads together, we are going to have to climb huge hills and slide down rocky mountains, but we will also be able to pause in the streams and play, lay in the grass and feel the warmth of the sun and go crazy in the forests in the morning, and we will give thanks to God in all circumstances.  Its going to be amazing....

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Shaking things up...

I am about to embark on the most intensive Bible Study and journey with Christ than I ever have before. 
I refuse to get into details on my blog about it because of the controversy that the topic I am studying is more than likley to start "drama" and negativity.  Two things I refuse to have during this study. 
I am doing this study because it is something very important to me.  To seek answers that I know are there, yet have probably been totally distroyed by translation, by "the church", and by ignorance.  This topic has caused much stress to many people I know, splits in families, splits between friends.  Ive had enough and came across some very good information that put some hope in my heart, some joy in my step, and made me praise my Lord Jesus Christ even more.  I am beyond to explore this, to dig into the Bible like I have never before. To meditate on Christs words, on the words of the Lord.  To find out what the words actually mean, to get into the nitty gritty.  Research the origional writings and what they said before they were translated into English.  This is so I can defend something very important to my family, friends and myself. 
If anyone reading this is interested in embarking in this with me, I more than welcome you, however I am not doing a public display of the study because I really cant be spending all day online (remember I have a bit of an addiction problem) debating.  But this is something that has put such excitement in my heart that I had to blog about it. Wish me luck!!

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Job 26:7-10

This morning while doing some studying and meditation on Gods amazing word, I flipped to Job and began to read and came across this part of it that I just really chewed on for a while.  With all the hatred on the news, people murdering people thinking it is good, saying hurtful angry things about other human beings, this rotting decaying hatred that sticks to your ribs and does nothing good, we need to remember that God is bigger than anything of this world. 

He spreads out the northern skies over empty space;
He suspends the earth over nothing.

He wraps up the waters in his clouds,
yet the clouds do not burst under their weight.

He covers the face of the full moon,
spreading His clouds over it.
He marks out the horizon on the face of the waters
for a boundary between light and darkness.

I just sit in awe thinking, if He can do all this, imagine what He can do in hearts of all if we would just love like Christ did, all the time, without hesitation, without fear of judgement?

Monday, May 2, 2011


Our street has exploded with the birth of new blossoms on the trees that line our road.  Its absolutly gorgeous.