Praise for Jesus- Walk with Him Wednesday

I used to write songs when I was a teenager, about being angry at the world, how nothing mattered.  I would scream into a microphone random rage.  Amplifers were cranked, distortion full blast. 

I have a very hard time writing for Jesus.  I dont know if its just because the journals and journals of music I wrote before were so angry, or what it is.  I have picked up my guitar on more than one occasion in my walk with Christ.  I have sang many songs that are not my own.  The past little while I felt Jesus nudging me to just play.  To play and sing to Him, about Him, about my walk.  Everytime I attempted too I got discouraged.  Our 12 string has strings missing, goes out of tune so very often... (kinda sounds like me some days)

Evenings after the kids go to bed, I usually put on worship music, new and old, and just relax. 

This past Friday night I was trying to learn a song on the guitar, and it wasnt working, I decided that I would play random notes and remembering Ann's post from this day,  I realized that in this moment could be time for worship.   It didnt all flow perfect at times, but I felt such a presence of our Lord. Even in the parts I edited out, where I didnt even know what to say, It felt right.   I wanted to share some of it with you. 

Our Church received a program for my daughters class to talk about worship.  I found this out on Sunday.  I thought, how funny is this that something that has been on my heart is now also going to be taught in her class!  We can really start to have conversations on it.  She was up in her room Monday with our guitar, writing songs for Jesus.  Just songs on how wonderful He has been to her, just regular conversations of thanks.  So simple and beautiful.  They just flowed.  She knows no chords, she doesnt know exactically how to hold this big instrument in her six year old hands,

 but it was still beautiful praise...

This is I think where worship is at for me right now.  To be free in it, to be free in Christ to raise my hands if I feel the urge, to kneel, to dance and laugh or cry and weap.  Worship has so many emotions in it.  They are not just melodies and lyrics, there is feeling and prayer to them as well.  If we are just harmonizing with those around us, but not focused on bringing glory to Christ, then are we doing it right?  I love it when the harmonizing is between me and Jesus.

Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God. ~ Colossians 3:16

Not everyone sings on key, or can play even a beat.  Some people sing quiet, or belt it out. Some with hymn books, others with projection screens and new music, some original, some inspired, some with drums and electric guitar, others with organ and piano.  I dont think it matters.  Singing in your car, singing in the shower, humming as you lull young ones to sleep.  All of it can be praise to God.  It doesnt matter how you sound to those around you... it matters though that you are doing it for HIM.  I think thats what He has been trying to show me

My lips will shout for joy, when I sing praises to you; my soul also, which you have redeemed. ~ Psalm 71:23



Humbled and thankful

I got ready for worship Sunday morning.  We had the music cranked. Music loudly proclaiming the love Christ has for us, and that we have for Him.  The children were dancing,  we were singing, jumping, raising our hands.  Getting pumped to worship our Lord and Saviour, after a strange week, I was ready to call out and praise Him proudly.  We left singing up the road, laughing, and just so filled with praise for God.  He indeed showed me things this week that helped me through these past moments.
While during worship though I felt God asking me to humble myself.  I felt my knee's literally wanting to give in.... I had only just started to raise my hands in worship months before... I had never felt the urge to kneel before God in worship.  I felt Him calling me to just sit with Him awhile.  Thats it..thats all. 
I was a bit thrown off by this.  I was a bit shocked with this...this is not what I had planned.  Not in the least.

Why should it be what I plan..shouldnt it be what He plans for me even in this?

I had no choice. Either I did as I felt God calling me to do, or I refused because of whatever foolish reasons that were bubbling around in my head... he humbled me to a level I had not experienced before...


Sitting with Jesus, quietly, thankfully and peacefully during worship.  Just in awe of His love.  A refreshing moment after dealing with feelings of stress and struggle. 


I am thankful. 

Thankful for humbling
2#  a husbands growing understanding and cravings for God
3#  pottery with children allowing creativity to flow.
4#  silent prayer in the middle of the night, the feeling of His protection
5#  the crisp breeze passing over
6#  family fellowship over food and laughter
7# music
8# making tents on the front lawn
9# girls playing dressup, finding that great friend and laughing histarically at the sound of frogs
10# the smile of a two year old digging into an orange.
11# prayer walks
12# granny squares
13# sheeps wool between my fingers
14# the imagination of children, seeping out and into you
15# container planters of flowers and lettuce
16# watering cans spilt gently by a child

Furious Love

I dont think I have ever done a movie review before. LOL, Im no critic really but this movie I found fantastic so I have to share!

My husband has gotten a nack for going to the Christian bookstore at our end and picking me up little gifts here and there.  They know him by name now, he goes in there more than I do and he hasnt given his life to Christ yet even :D .  Last week he picked me up the movie Furious Love.  I watched this movie with tears just flowing down my face at parts.   Darren Wilson goes into some of the most spiritually dark places in the world and aims to show two things-

1.show the world the reality of the war between darkness and light

2.show the world that the only way we can win this war is through love


Some places he goes is to he expericences demon tents, heroin addicts, goes into places where the sex trade is considered "normal",  New Age and Witchcraft festivals, persecuted churches... And all these places are put up against Gods amazing unconditional love!!!  Some of it is hard to swallow, there were parts I honestly wanted to turn the movie off because it was uncomfortable for me to hear some of the things that were spoken about, some of it was close to home.  But once you understand how awesome God is, you know that Gods power is stronger than any other force around us!!!  Seen or unseen!!!
 
After watching the movie, it gave me a boost in my heart to just worship Him more!  Then Church yesterday was all about praise and worship and that boosted me even more! What an awesome God we have!!!  I have just really felt so uplifted and so happy to have Christ in my life. And the fact that I am allowed to worship Him freely here in Canada, I could not be more thankful!  I may have to deal with a few people who critisize, or just dont get it, but I dont have to go through near as much stuff as some Christians in other parts of the world have to go through to worship our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ.   I honestly dont know how I would get through it all without Him. 
 
Have a great week everyone!!!!!!!!!  Happy Monday!!!!