Wife, Mother, Worshiper of Christ, trying to live on His timetable and not my own
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Praise for Jesus- Walk with Him Wednesday
I used to write songs when I was a teenager, about being angry at the world, how nothing mattered. I would scream into a microphone random rage. Amplifers were cranked, distortion full blast.
I have a very hard time writing for Jesus. I dont know if its just because the journals and journals of music I wrote before were so angry, or what it is. I have picked up my guitar on more than one occasion in my walk with Christ. I have sang many songs that are not my own. The past little while I felt Jesus nudging me to just play. To play and sing to Him, about Him, about my walk. Everytime I attempted too I got discouraged. Our 12 string has strings missing, goes out of tune so very often... (kinda sounds like me some days)
Evenings after the kids go to bed, I usually put on worship music, new and old, and just relax.
This past Friday night I was trying to learn a song on the guitar, and it wasnt working, I decided that I would play random notes and remembering Ann's post from this day, I realized that in this moment could be time for worship. It didnt all flow perfect at times, but I felt such a presence of our Lord. Even in the parts I edited out, where I didnt even know what to say, It felt right. I wanted to share some of it with you.
Our Church received a program for my daughters class to talk about worship. I found this out on Sunday. I thought, how funny is this that something that has been on my heart is now also going to be taught in her class! We can really start to have conversations on it. She was up in her room Monday with our guitar, writing songs for Jesus. Just songs on how wonderful He has been to her, just regular conversations of thanks. So simple and beautiful. They just flowed. She knows no chords, she doesnt know exactically how to hold this big instrument in her six year old hands,
but it was still beautiful praise...
This is I think where worship is at for me right now. To be free in it, to be free in Christ to raise my hands if I feel the urge, to kneel, to dance and laugh or cry and weap. Worship has so many emotions in it. They are not just melodies and lyrics, there is feeling and prayer to them as well. If we are just harmonizing with those around us, but not focused on bringing glory to Christ, then are we doing it right? I love it when the harmonizing is between me and Jesus.
Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God. ~ Colossians 3:16
Not everyone sings on key, or can play even a beat. Some people sing quiet, or belt it out. Some with hymn books, others with projection screens and new music, some original, some inspired, some with drums and electric guitar, others with organ and piano. I dont think it matters. Singing in your car, singing in the shower, humming as you lull young ones to sleep. All of it can be praise to God. It doesnt matter how you sound to those around you... it matters though that you are doing it for HIM. I think thats what He has been trying to show me
My lips will shout for joy, when I sing praises to you; my soul also, which you have redeemed. ~ Psalm 71:23