Watching my chidren as they have challenges come against them reminds me more and more of how fragile our minds and hearts are... how fragile and full of pride my mind and heart can be and is a lot more than it should be. Even when we know we are loved deeply and fully by Jesus, how His love covers all our hurts, we still get worked up and at times fall apart. Anger can sink in and there is that "not good enough" feeling that creeps in. Even though God's amazing Grace covers us and fills in those holes that we feel we have created.
We are doing a book study in Life Group at our Church, by Francis Frangipane called "Holiness, Truth and the Presence of God". As we dig into Part Two: The Spirit of Grace, the first paragraph on the page of Chaper Five spoke to me loud
"If you hear a teaching and feel as though it were unattainable in your condition, you have only heard half the message. you missed the grace that is always resident in the heart of God's truth. Truth without grace is only half true. Remember this always: grace and truth are realized in Jesus Christ (John 1:17-For the law was given through Moses, but grace and truth came through Jesus Christ.) What God's truth demands, His grace will provide."
I think the past few weeks I have really been forgetting that God is full of Grace. Loaded to the brim with it. I have felt definatly less than worthy of God's goodness and to be in His Kingdom. When I feel like this I feel like hiding from God. Kinda hard when He is in my heart! I have felt inadequate and very discourraged because I have forgotten about God's Grace...I have said it again and again, and heard it but time and time again latley I never really thought it. Really sat and reflected on it. He is a good God and He loves me. He provides the grace and forgiveness. I belong to Him and I need to drawn nearer and nearer to Him when I feel inadequate because He is the only one who can make me feel adequate. His Grace is enough.